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Monday, February 6, 2012
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I'm not who I used to be.
Why?
Because i've been hurt. I've gone through a lot of shit which has made me who I am today.
Over these past few years, so many things have happened.
Things that have changed who I used to... Little things, big things.
Everything.
As time passes, no one stays the same person. People tell me i've changed.
Don't you think I know that? Of course I've changed.
I'm not going to stay the same person forever.

Pain changes people.

No one ever stays the same, accept that. We all change. me, you, them, they, everyone. Get used to it.

Thursday, February 2, 2012
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Last Saturday, January 28th I had a date with the boyfriend! So well, we went to catch a movie and this time I had the privilege of choosing the movie we were going to watch! Initially, we wanted to watch Jack & Jill but after watching the trailer and seeing the comments & reviews on the movie, I decided that maybe that movie is just rubbish. Haha. & Yes, i always have the tendency to watch the trailer before watching the movie itself. Just to get the gist of the movie and to know what it is about so that I won't be watching the movie being clueless on what it's all about. I also intended of watching watch the movie 'The Vow' but it's only showing in cinemas during April :'( So gonna catch it once it's out! So.... we decided to watch JOURNEY 2: THE MYSTERIOUS ISLAND.

We met up at my place and we headed off to plaza singapura. Bought the tickets for the 4.25pm show! Not in 3D, though. After that, we decided to have our lunch at KFC. mmmm, i love their shroom burger so much!



After our satisfying our stomach, we walked around for a bit until it was time to watch our movie! Let me be honest, Journey 2 was an awesome show! I give it a 8/10. If you're intending to watch this movie, I suggest you watch it in 3D! I think it would have been more interesting/fun/better if you caught it in 3D! The show was so hilarious. Although, to me i find every single movie with such predictable endings. WHY WHY WHY! Don't you get sick of it? Always seeing happy endings? Cause' I am. For once, i want a surprising ending. Something not too predictable. Maybe for once, the bad guy could win? I would love to see a that kind of movie.

After the movie, we walked around for a bit then headed to somerset. Didn't do much there because we were kind of in a middle of an argument. I hate it when he's mad. Makes me so mad too. Like I just want to drop everything and just hug him to make things okay. Went back to around my neighborhood to hang out there. And thankfully, we managed to pull through and work things out :) Everything's good now! ^-^

On Monday, January 30th we met up again! This time, it was just a small little meet up. Those days where you just sit down and well... do nothing with your partner. Haha! We played games though, like monopoly deal. He made a deal to me that whoever looses, will listen to the winner the whole day. And guess what? I WON! I AM THE CHAMPION IN MONOPOLY DEAL! But he didn't even listen to me la. tsk >:( sore loser!
Here are some pictures we took. Pardon me because I had messy hairdo and minimal make up. I'm always like this with him because.... I can be myself :)


Definitely had a great time with him. I always do, anyway! I like simple days out with him just like the one we recently had, where we can just sit down, and talk. Just enjoying every single moment together. Pure bliss. Nothing so complicated. Just catching up together and talking about life :) We don't have to plan so much things too. And moreover.... we don't even spend money on that day! Haha. Simple day out is always the best. So yeah, that was about it! Oh yess! I have something to show...... guess what came in my mail today?

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Tadaaa!! Pretty isn't it? I love animal prints so much! Haha. There were three colour choices i had to choose from but I decided with this one, since pink is my favorite color and I thought the rest were too common, maybe i've seen people using it somewhere too. I don't like having common things, having things that i've seen others using. I don't know, that's just me. I like being special and unique, haha. I've been waiting for this new cover for my iphone for weeks & i finally got it today! I'm so happy with it :) I've been looking all over for cheetah prints iphone cover and i finally found it online! I was anticipating getting it, and it definitely wasn't a disappointment at all! You should really get your phone covers online, they are cheap too! :) Alright, i'll end this post here! Till here, xoxo

Dilemma
Tuesday, January 31, 2012
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Lately.... I've been thinking. What am I supposed to do in life? Planning out your future can be even much harder than I thought. There's so many options. Consequences. Thinking about it, having second thoughts, doubts. It's just so frustrating. What if this doesn't work? What if i don't do well in this? What if I fail in this? Those questions always come into my mind. Trust me, if there would be anything in this world I could ask for I would want to know what decision am I supposed to pick which is the best for me. Just a sign, maybe? Just an assurance I'm doing the right thing. Because for now, I'm not even sure if anything i'm thinking of will ever work out for me.

Thinking of it, I've never actually knew what I wanted in life, actually. I've heard people who has already planned out their future right from the start. Since they were young, they already set their mind into something they want to achieve. It's like i want so many things. I just don't know what's right for me at this moment. I just feel like chopping off all my hair just thinking about it. Choices, choices, more choices. Decisions, decisions and more decisions. Dilemma. Gosh. Give me a sign already.

I really envy those people who are really certain in what they want to achieve in life. For me, it seems like i'm leading a life without any goals. Like a go with the flow kind of thing. Maybe I lack in motivation, maybe I just need a little more push. I wished I already knew what I wanted from the very start. Now i see... how important it is to actually plan out what you want in life and your future from the very start. You may be young, but it's not never wrong to plan out your future even at a young age. It's actually a good thing. At least you'll know where you want to end up in life. You'll have a goal. A mindset. A dream to achieve. Unlike me over here, forever stuck in a dilemma. Still struggling to know where my heart really belongs. What a bummer.

I'm just so scared of making a wrong decision. I'm pretty much a very fickle minded person. To almost everything. Could just be picking out a outfit to wear for the day, shopping, even to what kind of drinks or food I want to get. So could you imagine? A tough decision for my future.... and I have to figure this out? It's a big decision, for me. I just don't want anything to be screwed up. Who wants that right? I just want everything to go well, smooth and I end up successful. I don't want to disappoint anyone. Especially my parents. I don't want to let them down. Neither do I want to disappoint myself. That's the worst it could ever get. For now, I only have one thing in my mind. If you asked me, what do I want to be when I grow up... I would say I just want to be happy and of course, successful and if I actually manage to do that, then in my eyes I am already a winner. I guess i'll go back to thinking now, goodbye readers xx

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Things don't always go our way.

So yes, this is yet my first proper blogspot ever since I'm starting to blog again. Recently, i've been thinking about life and how unfair it is. Things don't always go our way doesn't it? Well, that's life. What we have to do is just to accept our fate and go on with it. It may be easier said than done, but maybe what we set our minds in life aren't meant for us? Maybe there's something better out there. Just like how you don't get the one you're crazy in love in, and he leaves you. Maybe they leave for a reason, maybe God put him out of your life just because he knows there's something better for you. He's giving you something else that's way better. You deserve better. Right now, you may think that's what you really want but what if that something you want isn't meant to be your's? Just let it go. There is always other options.

You know how it sucks when you want something really really really bad and you worked so hard for it and in the end you don't get it what you want and yet some others get what you actually wanted all this while? And you feel like you deserve it the most because you put so much effort into it? And yet.... you still don't get it. Everything happens for a reason, I believe. But then again, it's hard to just sit here wondering what that "reason" is. Whatever it is, just don't give up. Have faith, keep moving forward. If it's not meant to be, then it's not meant to be.

There's plenty of things that I wanted so badly but then I realized, it's just not for me. For example, getting back my O's results. Of course, I thought I could do SO MUCH BETTER than I did. Maybe i'm fated to take a longer path? Maybe i'm fated to take things slowly? No point regretting now, no point crying over spilled milk. It's all over. I did my best, gave my all and I'm accepting whatever the outcome is :)

For the people out there reading this, I just want to say one thing. Never give up. You may not get what you want now, but maybe your time will come soon. Just like love. It takes time. Everyone's life has a different path. Make mistakes, don't be perfect. Being perfect is a mistake. Without mistakes, you may never know what's wrong and right and you may never learn from your mistake. Of course, don't make silly mistakes intentionally. Whatever it is, there's always something out there in life waiting for you. Stay patient. God bless, xx <3

Sunday, January 29, 2012
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"sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together"


So hi blogger, it has yet been a long time since i've last blogged. Too long, maybe. I may want to start blogging again but I know whenever I say this, I never stick to it mainly because i'm too plain lazy :P A few reasons why i want to start blogging again 1) boredom. Yes, pure boredom. Facebook, twitter, youtube, tumblr, that's all I do mostly on the laptop every time. I want to try something new this time, and at least it might keep me entertained for awhile. You know... just typing away away away. 2) I want to keep memories. Yes, I have been blogging the past few years and I stopped(don't remember why though) So i thought maybe i should start back for the sake of memories. A place where I can just pen down my thoughts, feelings, talk about my daily life and I will always have something to look back on. 3) People. I've seen people blogging these days and it makes me miss blogging too! So I can say that it's not entirely about me, but it's about others who made me want to start blogging too :)

So let me start off from where I left off. Wow the last time I blogged, was when I was not even sitting for O levels yet! Throughout this years/months I have stopped blogging, pretty much a lot of things has been happening. Ups, downs, turn around, left, right, back, front. Haha. No, i mean it. A lot of things has been happening. Things like sitting for the most important exam (so far), receiving results, meeting new friends... loosing friends and stuff like that. Fights, arguments, make up, break up. Things like that, but that's life yes? Currently, I'm school-less. You can say that for now. Haha. I've gotten back my O'level examination results recently, and so i'm just waiting for school to start :) My life has been okay so far, nothing special, nothing amazing, nothing shocking. Just me. Normal, simple, you can even say boring. Sometimes I think I need excitement in my life. Something new? Perhaps I should pick up a new hobby. Or do something. Haha, I like adventures :P

I guess i'll stop here because really... I'm beyond clueless what else shall I type here. Until the next blogpost, I guess? Hopefully this time i'll stick to my words and blog more often. Have a great day everyone. :)